whatever, whatever

I started this seventeen months ago or something like that just because I wanted to take a portrait of myself that looked like a portrait that could be found in a locket or something but it became a documentation/diary sort of thing for me. This is what I have so far.

diligent
1/28/11

pathetic
4/11/11

lamentable
8/18/11

humdrum
11/08/11

complacent
5/21/12

naïve
6/18/12 

because viktoria said so

Really old photos from back when I had energy and motivation and all of those beautiful things.
I remember when I shot this that I thought the film was color until I went to drop it off at the photo place and they fucked up the contrast on some of them and it pisses me off.
Someday I'll reprint these and fix it all up.
Photos of the lovely Viktoria and her home.

we try something new.

I printed the first three two months ago and the last two today so they're a tad different in contrast. Also, I should just shoot in film all the time because it makes me feel so much better. But although film is great and stuff, scanning is the worst thing and you can see an silhouette of my fingers in most of these. Thanks to Lilja for modeling. And LucyDucy for makeup.

wait, they call you a photographer?

Hah, so I never really found an excuse for not taking photos. I mean, I have been taking photos, but they're all just candids of friends and stuff. Not expanding my photography or anything. But I guess it's okay, because it's my senior year and I'd rather capture memories right now. I keep telling myself that I'll shoot some new things but the truth is that I don't have any ideas and the passion isn't there right now. I don't really know what passions I have right now. I'm not writing, I'm not taking photos, I'm not really thinking on a regular basis. I kind of just sit on my bed and watch movies and all my thoughts are revolved around that. I don't know, maybe I'm in a funk and I need to find a way out of it.

Anyways, these are some film photos from September to December. I haven't shot any film since then because I thought I lost my camera. . . . (The ones of me are shot by Becca)

forgot who took this but it wasn't becca~