wait, they call you a photographer?

Hah, so I never really found an excuse for not taking photos. I mean, I have been taking photos, but they're all just candids of friends and stuff. Not expanding my photography or anything. But I guess it's okay, because it's my senior year and I'd rather capture memories right now. I keep telling myself that I'll shoot some new things but the truth is that I don't have any ideas and the passion isn't there right now. I don't really know what passions I have right now. I'm not writing, I'm not taking photos, I'm not really thinking on a regular basis. I kind of just sit on my bed and watch movies and all my thoughts are revolved around that. I don't know, maybe I'm in a funk and I need to find a way out of it.

Anyways, these are some film photos from September to December. I haven't shot any film since then because I thought I lost my camera. . . . (The ones of me are shot by Becca)

forgot who took this but it wasn't becca~

numb fingers

Bunch of photos I've printed that don't really relate to anything but okay.

i really only like this cropped out like this.

we went on a journey to grandmother's

I really liked this shoot when it was still just an idea in my head and when it was in the canister and when they were just negatives. Now, though, as actual printed photos, I don't like it as much. And I think that has a lot to do with style and how my style seems to be "oh let's dress up these cute kids and make them play make believe and it's all cute and everything" and I think that I don't want to be so "cute" with my photography but it just ends up looking like it in the end.

the fox and the wolf

The fox and the wolf.

summer's mind.

So I've had this image in my mind since the summer and I only got around to taking it today. One of the trees is now naked and the sun doesn't hit this area the right way but I don't care at this point.

motivation

Sometimes I like to yell at myself for not taking as many photos anymore and go through my documents and look at all the shoots I did and how proud I actually am of them. I compiled all my favorites (digital, film, instaxs, etc...) and am posting it here as a sort of motivation for myself to get my shit together. I haven't done a planned shoot since August with Becca and I don't really count that so actually it was July that I last shot with a clear intention of what I wanted in the end. Oye, I just haven't shot much this year and that makes me sad.

I know what's missing in my life, though.

Color film, duh.

~~~~~~digital stuff~~~~~~

~~~~~~instaxs&'roids~~~~~~

~~~~~~black&white film~~~~~~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥color film♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I'll just go in my corner now and cry.